And that's how it began...Her dream. It was no secret that sewing to "abuela del campo," was more than a passion. It became her life! I can remember as a child sitting across the tiny room where two industrial machines took most of the space wondering how this process worked. Fabric she cut, stretched, tugged and pulled became a dress; and as a child it appeared to me as if my grandmother secretly made magic. It was a room of threads and fabrics where a fairy, with her magic, made the most beautiful gowns!
I later grew up used to seeing her sew and grew quite used to it. The magic had lost, well its "magic," and her industrial Juki machines became monsters that ate up her time. It was when Abuela saw me old enough to understand that she told me a couple of times how her dream had always been to open a Bridal atelier where she could spend the rest of her life in.
I saw her struggle in her dream and this frustrated me. I couldn't understand why language had become such an issue for her. Why the money she earned from working in a factory that produced children clothing never made it into a savings where she could later use to bring the dream to fruition. Instead, I saw her work hard in order to get her family ahead in life. She really wanted them to "make it in this country" that had offer her the opportunity to start anew. Unfortunately, she died nesting the idea of someday owning a bridal atelier.
She made sacrifices to an extent I will never fully comprehend. I don't doubt she must have felt frustrated at times, cried at other times in private, or even saw hope slip through her fingertips, but one thing is for certain, we never saw the pain. We were her life and this was a fair trade for the dream that would never be.

Etelvina Garcia (1926-2000)
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